GRATITUDE.

"When you're trying to change your life for the better, things effortlessly adjusts to you." - Gloria M.

At the beginning of the month of February, I wrote on my calendar that this month will be a month of GRATITUDE. As the month went by, I found myself being grateful for the little things because God has been providing in ways I cannot explain. 

Something amazing happened to me this past weekend and I thought I'd share. 

It was my best friend's birthday, and we took her out of town for a well-deserved self care weekend. Weeks leading to the outing, I was having dreams of being belligerently drunk and I would wake up anxious. Sobriety is still new to me and I really wanted to honor my word to myself, not to drink that weekend.

On Saturday, we took her to a restaurant. They ordered a bottle of wine, and I ordered a Moscow Mule (non alcoholic) it was really good. When the waiter found out about my best friend's birthday, he brought around complimentary shots. My anxiety went through the roof because the thing I worried about happening, was happening !

We all looked at the waiter and told him that I don't drink and before we finished our sentence he said: " don't worry, I remembered you, it's a Moscow mule non alcoholic in a shot" I almost cried in the restaurant.

That moment, I realized that when you are really committed to changing your life, everything effortlessly adjusts to you. You don't have to do anything or go out of your way to compromise. 

On my way home, I realized that I am days away from my 100th day of sobriety and I cried. I cried realizing that not ONCE did my friends entice me to drink. If anything, they were so supportive and had my back throughout. 

Dear God, 

Thank you. My heart is full at the thought of what you have been doing and showing me. You asked me for blind obedience and let you work your way in my life and you have kept your word throughout. I thank you for breaking protocol on my behalf and showing me that if I just obey and keep you close, you make everything work for my good. 

As my 100th day approaches, I pray that you keep me strong and hopeful for a better tomorrow. 

Amen!


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