28 days of devotion : " Have you kept your promise?" (FINALE)
It is unwise to make decisions based off of your emotions. Get out of your feelings for a moment. Use logic.
Do you believe in the universe coming together for you? Do you believe that God is able to disrupt everything in your life so that you could spend 5 minutes with Him ? Do you believe that God listens to you when you speak ? How is your relationship with Him ?
In January, I worked on connecting with my environment. I was told that everything that you have around you represents who you are. So I worked on keeping my spaces tidy, organizing my thought process, I worked on discipline (how to save money. Not go on social media before a certain time etc ..) do things that are mentally good for me. Fast forward to February. I wanted to really focus on my spiritual journey and because God is an amazing teacher, He sent me back to myself. I meditated on proverbs. Part 1 and 2 are already posted and this is the finale of the series...
I am supposed to write down the remaining last days of February, but let me sum it up by telling you this story. It all connects in the end.
My mother had asked me to go to a church retreat with her. In the beginning I accepted because I mean... why not !? but truly, I wasn't feeling the need to spend time with church people. I kept telling myself that I'm already doing devotion for the month. I mean... I am learning and connecting with God do I have to go to church? I've got it all right here! My mother kept reminding me about it and it got me so worked up that I started thinking of different excuses to give her just so that I don't go. The weather wasn't the best on Friday night so we decided against it. At this point I'm thinking " YES! I don't have to go anymore" but little did I know ... Anyways,We left very early on Saturday morning. I was cranky and kept wondering why it was so important for her that I be there.
When we arrived, I refused to unwind. I felt out of place and I was annoyed that the people were so happy. there were different church sessions throughout the day and I refused to leave my room. It just wasn't happening. Here's the best part, I noticed that the day started going by SO. SLOW. I started to get angry. Usually Saturdays go by fast, what is it with THIS particular Saturday..? well, I had nowhere else to go so I decided to attend a service just so that the day will speed up. As I walked in the room where service was taking place, I felt my mood switch. I wasn't happy, I wasn't sad I really felt like crying but it wasn't tears of sadness. The message at that time was about the fruits of the spirit. (Galatians 5,22-23) Through all of that, God was teaching me Patience. I was rushing the day and refused to spend time reading my bible and meditating. I chose to sleep and complain but everything aligned for me to find myself at that particular service. I needed to hear the message.
There was another service that had started around 8 pm so I told myself " Glo! there is something for you here. Allow it!". That night was strictly worship. At one point they left us to pray with ourselves and simply speak to God. Listen ... I pray and I meditate, but this one was different. I sat in silence for so long that it became familiar and I felt such peace that I didn't want to leave where I was. I was happier... lighter. I felt a sense of connection with myself that I haven't felt in a very long time. I recognized myself. That weekend turned out to be the most amazing one after all.
Today is the last day of February and this question came to mind " Have you kept your promise to God? ". The voice inside of me kept asking me this question, and it started annoying me that I didn't know the answer to it. I couldn't understand the promise that it was asking me. So I opened my bible and read proverbs 28, 25: "A greedy person stirs up conflict but, Whoever trusts in the Lord will prosper." Returning to myself is very important. This word reminds me to keep my eyes glued on God's purpose for my life. To plant seeds wherever I go and not be ashamed of who God is and who He has called me to be.
Dear God,
Thank you for teaching me. For testing my limits and reminding me why it is important to always return to myself. I pray for those who do not know you. I pray that they know you. I pray that they experience your beauty and recognize themselves through your goodness. Remind us everyday to trust in you and not be greedy with the talents that you have placed within us. In Jesus name, Amen!
In January, I worked on connecting with my environment. I was told that everything that you have around you represents who you are. So I worked on keeping my spaces tidy, organizing my thought process, I worked on discipline (how to save money. Not go on social media before a certain time etc ..) do things that are mentally good for me. Fast forward to February. I wanted to really focus on my spiritual journey and because God is an amazing teacher, He sent me back to myself. I meditated on proverbs. Part 1 and 2 are already posted and this is the finale of the series...
I am supposed to write down the remaining last days of February, but let me sum it up by telling you this story. It all connects in the end.
My mother had asked me to go to a church retreat with her. In the beginning I accepted because I mean... why not !? but truly, I wasn't feeling the need to spend time with church people. I kept telling myself that I'm already doing devotion for the month. I mean... I am learning and connecting with God do I have to go to church? I've got it all right here! My mother kept reminding me about it and it got me so worked up that I started thinking of different excuses to give her just so that I don't go. The weather wasn't the best on Friday night so we decided against it. At this point I'm thinking " YES! I don't have to go anymore" but little did I know ... Anyways,We left very early on Saturday morning. I was cranky and kept wondering why it was so important for her that I be there.
When we arrived, I refused to unwind. I felt out of place and I was annoyed that the people were so happy. there were different church sessions throughout the day and I refused to leave my room. It just wasn't happening. Here's the best part, I noticed that the day started going by SO. SLOW. I started to get angry. Usually Saturdays go by fast, what is it with THIS particular Saturday..? well, I had nowhere else to go so I decided to attend a service just so that the day will speed up. As I walked in the room where service was taking place, I felt my mood switch. I wasn't happy, I wasn't sad I really felt like crying but it wasn't tears of sadness. The message at that time was about the fruits of the spirit. (Galatians 5,22-23) Through all of that, God was teaching me Patience. I was rushing the day and refused to spend time reading my bible and meditating. I chose to sleep and complain but everything aligned for me to find myself at that particular service. I needed to hear the message.
There was another service that had started around 8 pm so I told myself " Glo! there is something for you here. Allow it!". That night was strictly worship. At one point they left us to pray with ourselves and simply speak to God. Listen ... I pray and I meditate, but this one was different. I sat in silence for so long that it became familiar and I felt such peace that I didn't want to leave where I was. I was happier... lighter. I felt a sense of connection with myself that I haven't felt in a very long time. I recognized myself. That weekend turned out to be the most amazing one after all.
Today is the last day of February and this question came to mind " Have you kept your promise to God? ". The voice inside of me kept asking me this question, and it started annoying me that I didn't know the answer to it. I couldn't understand the promise that it was asking me. So I opened my bible and read proverbs 28, 25: "A greedy person stirs up conflict but, Whoever trusts in the Lord will prosper." Returning to myself is very important. This word reminds me to keep my eyes glued on God's purpose for my life. To plant seeds wherever I go and not be ashamed of who God is and who He has called me to be.
Dear God,
Thank you for teaching me. For testing my limits and reminding me why it is important to always return to myself. I pray for those who do not know you. I pray that they know you. I pray that they experience your beauty and recognize themselves through your goodness. Remind us everyday to trust in you and not be greedy with the talents that you have placed within us. In Jesus name, Amen!
Comments
Post a Comment