THE GOD OF ANSWERED PRAYERS - DEJA VUE

  " ... and when it happens, it's going to feel like a deja vue." - Jeannelle 

I was desperately trying to figure out what I needed to do for my 30th birthday this year. I wanted to do something big because 30 needs to be celebrated but I kept saying to myself that I don't know enough people to make my birthday that big. I kept procrastinating on finding a hall and I think, deep down, I knew that I didn't want the big birthday I was desperately craving. 

One night in March, I remember dreaming about people I've never met. It was such an odd dream because it went by days. It wasn't scattered like dreams normally are. One day, I was at the train station talking to a clerk. Then the next day I was in a foreign country that felt very familiar. Another day, I met one person by the door between the bathroom and the hall and gave them a message and another day, I was in the ocean with a man and a woman. While we were praying, I could see water tornado spinning around us. It was getting stronger but was in no way getting close to us. I remember there were 2 buildings that I kept focusing on from a distance while I was in the water. It was such a vivid dream. When I woke up, I immediately started looking into flights out of the country. 

I had 3 major places in mind. Mexico, Saint Lucia and Barbados; But every time I searched for where to stay, it just never felt right. I was just looking and wishing I went there but I wasn't attracted to those places and I couldn't figure out why. During the month of June, I was just casually scrolling on IG and I saw a picture that triggered the memory of the dream I had and I immediately started looking for all inclusive resorts in Jamaica. In the moment, I found what I was looking for but when it came down to booking, I got a little hesitant because I was going to book a "solo" trip out of the country. I'm used to going on trips with my best friend but this time, life was happening for my best friend as well and I couldn't disturb her and I also wasn't going to ask anybody else so, I did it. I booked my trip. Though I wanted something big, I realized that I needed to do this. It felt right.

As it got closer to the trip, I started panicking a little because I've never been out of the country on my own. I have been to Jamaica before but I wasn't alone and I was young. I don't remember it much. Each time I would panic though, I would be reminded in an interesting way that I won't be alone and I'll be just fine. 

God started showing out the second I got on the train heading towards Toronto. This is how I knew I've already lived the week of 30JUN2024 - 07JUL2024. When I got to the train station, I made it there 2hrs earlier. My train was at 9:55AM and when the 8:00AM train went by, the clerk came up to me concerned and said : " I think you missed your train. At what time is yours supposed to pass?" I gave him the time and he said : "Oh okay good! because I was going to ask you to come with me so we can change your time and put you on the next train!" the second I heard him say that, I kind of twitched and I said out loud: " OMG! I'm having a deja vue!". We laughed and he went on about his day.

From the moment that happened, I begin remembering things about the day like I knew what was coming next. Wild right? 

Dear God,

Ever since I could remember, you've given me the gift of visions; And for the longest time I ran away from them because they were terrifying. I couldn't understand them and I was too self conscious about how it will be received by others. But you knew I couldn't run away forever. You knew that at some point, when I choose you, I was going to surrender fighting and begin embracing it. I thank you for giving me the clarity I asked for in the form of visions. All the Glory belongs to you. 




Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Celebration of accomplishments.

Image
" Growing up isn't always measured by your age or physical appearance it's sometimes measured by your accomplishment." I love to see those around me accomplish what they work hard for. Those who give their all to something to prove to themselves that they are capable of pushing their bodies and intellectualism to the maximum. November 18th 2017, I was honored to participate in my good friend's graduation at Carlton University. I unfortunately was unable to make it to the ceremony but I made it on time enough to watch her walk through the doors as she and her fellow graduates were being clapped for in regards of their accomplishments. Looking at the relief in her eyes was not only priceless but it was beautiful. The person who impacted me the most was her mother. There is nothing like seeing the fruit of your labor accomplish something that most drop out of or become disinterested in after awhile. She was the happiest; The proudest ! Having a strong support ...
Read more

TO WHOM MUCH IS GIVEN, MUCH IS REQUIRED!

You know what's amazing about life? efforts and consistency. When you're in it, you don't see any progress but when you zoom out, the picture is clearer and you understand that what happened, needed to happen in order for you to grow. And in order for you to know that what you need, can easily belong to you if you allow yourself to focus, put it efforts and be consistent! Last year, I needed a second job because I needed to up my income in order to be financially comfortable. I needed to invest more in Glotalks, I needed to clear some debts and I also wanted to spoil myself. When I asked and searched relentlessly, I found absolutely nothing. That humbled me. in hindsight, I was searching out of desperation and would accept anything that came my way. I was even ready to go back and work at MacDonald's if they took me (though, I'm over qualified, I still had hopes). Fast forward to October 2024, my friend sent me a WhatsApp message with an attachment of employment. Th...
Read more

GOD HAS A FUNNY SENSE OF HUMOR

A couple of days ago I noticed myself slipping and kind of hitting rock bottom. Some will say it's because I'm low on iron. So fatigue, dehydration and loss of appetite have been a battle this year but it's also because, the month of July just started off on the wrong foot. Yes, I kept going places and keeping myself busy, but it's genuinely because I was mentally declining and running away was the best option.  July was full of bliss but also full of heartache and I couldn't compartmentalize, so I did everything at once until I crashed. What's the famous quote every dangerous stunts performed on live tv say: " DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME " results may very and mine almost sent me into a full mental break down. I also wasn't helping my situation. I didn't feel sorry for myself.  Until the famous day, when I found myself in my room and realizing, I keep coming back to the same place and facing myself. With no distraction, just me. No matter how much...
Read more