THE TWO STREETS ANALOGY.

 Hey you! How are you? tell me, have you ever heard of the two streets analogy ? No ? Let me explain what that is. 

You're walking down a street and there is a neighborhood on your left and your right. Because you cannot walk in the middle of the street, you choose to walk on the left side of the neighborhood. Instead of paying attention to the houses on the left, you are too busy paying attention to the houses on the right. But it's only when you go walking on the right side do you now see what you were missing out on. The neighborhood on the left were probably very well decorated but because the only thing that caught your eyes were houses on the right neighborhood, you missed out on a better view. 

I was very emotional this week and I couldn't pin point what was making me so sad. I had an idea but I was avoiding dealing with it because it was so miniscule, it didn't need to be on the forefront of my mind. I started lacking sleep, getting snappy at the littlest things, being mean when I shouldn't be, crying for absolutely no reason and isolating. It was to the point where my body begin to physically hurt. The reason I knew that these were my emotions getting the best of me, was because I've felt this before and the only way I know how to deal with it is to release, journal, pray and go for a long walk. No matter the weather. And that's what I finally did. I went for a long walk!

On my walk, I realized that I was too focused on my emotions and what was happening in my head that I didn't pay attention to what was around me so I had to ask myself the real question: "is this how I go through life now a days? is this what my life is now?" 

On my way back home, I got to really take in my surroundings and I found myself standing in the midst of what I always wished/prayed for. I am standing right in the middle of neighborhoods I used to drive around with friends late at night and wishing that one day, that'll be us. I am standing right in the midst of peace I always told myself I will get one day. I am in the midst of the happiness I promised myself I will get to no matter what and let me just say ... I almost shed a tear. 

Even though this week almost convinced me that I am what my emotions tell me I am; I am grateful that I got to self evaluate and figured out what the trigger was and how to stop it before it got out of hand.

What do you do when you catch yourself slipping back into anxiety, depression and other moods that you might not recognize at first but once you get an understanding of it you act on it?

Dear God,

Thank you for another week of life. Thank you for your grace. Though this week was a challenge of some sorts, I am thankful to be reminded not to give up and always hope for tomorrow. Sentences such as " today is rough but tomorrow will be a new and better day" left my mouth throughout the week and 2 years me, would of never even thought this way. I pray for those who had the same week as mine and are still struggling to get out of that dark place. I pray that they breathe fresher air in the upcoming week.