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 " Don't forget the work part of whatever you are trying to manifest" - Jeff Sanon There are few things that fuel my fear of living. Not making my parents proud; The fear of the unknown; Not being able to achieve my goals in life and overstaying my welcome anywhere.  The fear of overstaying my welcome stems from hearing how you're talked about by those who no longer want you where you are. The defamation of character and of course we say that we don't care what people think but it does affect us at some point. *shivers*  That's not how I'd like to start this post though. Let me start off by saying, hello. It has been a long time since we've spoken. There's a lot to catch up on but for now, I would like to formally say thank you. To those of you who have taken the time to read my posts and related to me. It truly means a lot.  I'm pretty sure you've read the title and you just want to read the part of me explaining what the title means and w...

 " When God decides to give you siblings, He knows how much you can take."   I always considered myself a loner and I have siblings.  This mindset made my time on earth interesting. Even when I was told that I'm not alone, it always seemed like it was fake.  I had a conversation with my older brother Eddy yesterday and I was reminded of his place in my life. Dear God,  Thank you.

Dear you,  So we meet again.  How did you manage to get yourself in the same exact situation you swore not to go back to?  Why did you second guess yourself in the first place? You knew it was going to end here.  This lesson keeps repeating because you're refusing to learn.  Sincerely,  Please remember the question on the test that's giving you trouble and study for it. This is costing you peace and happiness and you deserve every bit of it.

" We've learned your french. We learned your English. We learned your Spanish, your Deutsch, your Portuguese, your German.. You've learned our NOTHING and call us stupid. That's white privilege" -- Kyla Lacey. SILENCE IS COMPLIANCE -- Ottawa protest June 5th 2020 -- Picture taken by Anne-Sybil Yacé. END POLICE BRUTALITY -- Ottawa Protest June 5th 2020 -- Picture taken by Anne-Sybil Yacé. RACISM IS AN ILLNESS -- Ottawa Protest June 5th 2020 -- Picture taken by Anne-Sybil Yacé  NO JUSTICE. NO PEACE -- Ottawa Protest June 5th 2020 -- Picture taken by Anne-Sybil Yacé WE WANT JUSTICE --  Ottawa Protest June 5th 2020 -- Picture taken by Anne-Sybil Yacé Dear God, A lot of people have lost their lives in the hands of those that are supposed to protect us. Please bring justice to the world so that more families don't mourn the loss of their loved ones to police brutality.

Dear God, I am in the dark right now. Physically and metaphorically. I can't picture the end of the tunnel. I see no lights. Maybe it's because my eyes aren't used to the darkness yet. Or maybe I'm closing my eyes so tight that im fearful of opening them and be faced with reality. Either or, I don't see a hint of light anywhere and honestly, I'm scared. I'm scared but I trust you. I trust that every day that goes by, you are guiding me to the end. I know I'm not lost and I know that I can hear you. I just can't see anything. Thank you for reminding me that because you are God, my steps are ordered. Take care of me and those going through this right now not knowing how to deal with fear. Amen.

" Everyday, begin with an act of hope and courage. Getting out of bed" - Mason Cooley Let me tell you something about April; I aspire to be more like her. Actually, I think that WE, as a society should aspire to be more like April. Never overstay your welcome! Guys, we finally made it to MAY!!! *crowd cheers*. Honestly, this is my favorite month. I remember when 2020 started, I told myself that I was going to keep pushing no matter what and guess what I did? I pushed. I started off my year in the hospital. Wait. Hold on ... Before I give you a long story short, let me just open up a parenthesis because I don't get to acknowledge my support system often. [ ... I have a friend who became my sister. Her name is Vanessa Jules. My heart gets full every time I think about what she's done for little ol' me throughout the years. I want to give a big fat thank you to her. I'm not the most opened person, but she's been patient with me every step of the way. ...

Day ..... of quarantine. " what is your morning and night routine ?" When the quarantine first started, i really had no routine and I'm trying really hard to establish one at best for the end of it. My mornings are usually rough but when I wake up, I shower as I would getting ready for work. I go in the kitchen and make myself a cup of tea and add some sea moss in it. It's a great energy booster. Then I log in for work. At around 10am -11am, i have brunch. Laugh at me all you want but I litterally have brunch. I sometimes even choose to have either or; You know ? ... just to add a little Juuj. Since I spend most of my days at work and leave work and stay home, i decided to tweak my night routine a little bit. I usually try and gather myself for an hour after work. No talking to anybody just sitting in silence. I find it rebalances me a little. I don't get to think about anything. I just get to be. Around 5:00pm or 5:30pm to 6:00pm, I go for a walk. S...

Guys, you know when you're overly excited for something but cannot for the life of you wrap your mind around it? So you start to work on other things and instead of working in order and taking your time, you're all over the place because something just doesn't feel quite right yet... Today's question was : " What do I need to let go of that's out of my control today?" Uhm, for strarters ... the need to always panic when i should sit still and gather myself before making a drastic decison ?? Helloooo !?! Honestly though, if there is one thing I needed to let go of today was my constant need to always be in control of something. This will be a work in progress but coming to the realization of this is making me see a different perspective of things. When you see this question , what is it making you think of ? What is the one thing that you will let go of that you have no control over ?

Hello, It's been so long since we've spoken...How are you? Now, don't make fun of me but I haven't practiced what I am about to preach. I see a lot of posts left and right talking about " STAY HOME! don't go anywhere" fair enough this pandemic has made us all go kind of paranoid and it only makes sense that for once in our lives, we listen to the rules because THIS ... IS... REAL! And I get it, not all of us are home bodies. This pandemic has made our bodies decide to go on vacation mode. Sleep has been kind of extinct one will say and everything just stopped moving the way it used to. We over eat. Over sleep and are overly B O R E D! Do you know that I actually miss my commutes to work? I'm grateful enough that I get to work remotely. But something about just waking up at 5:30 am still a little tired and still dragging my body out of bed. Getting dressed and sitting on my bed for a long time contemplating life. Looking at the time and only having ...

Hey you, As the decade begun, a lot of things are departing from you. Loss and nostalgia are the two things attempting to lead your heart at the moment.  Do you know what love is? do you understand it ? how has love been taught to you? It sounds cliché when you hear advises such as " just take it one day at a time" but really, what else is there to do besides taking it one day at a time? Dear self, Take it one day at a time. All good things come when you least expect them.