GRIEVING

 " Grief is not linear. Some days it is completely manageable and other days it leaves you in shambles." - Unknown

We had an interesting 2020. It was hard on all of us and as the year ended, the thing we all were thankful for was family and simply being alive. 

December 25th, I lost my nephew. I didn't know how to process it because sad news usually takes time for me to accept. My holidays were to say the least, a funeral. 

As I'm writing this, I am at a loss for words because just when I thought I will make it to 2021 with everyone, I had to lose someone. This put into perspective that it doesn't just happen to others and that it can happen to you at any given time and you should always be prepared. 

Throughout this process of grieving, I've had friends whom I mentioned the news to and they made the process easier to manage. I'd like to thank my friends. The laughter they brought to keep me from crying and the hugs I received to remind me that I am not alone. My heart is full. 

We were able to burry him on the 3rd of January. 

To those who have lost a loved one throughout the year 2020 I say my condolences and I am sorry for your loss. It is not an easy process accepting that you will no longer have the chance to see/ touch nor speak to them but there is only memories of them that will always keep it going for you. Please, hang on to that. 

Dear God, 

You give and you take in your own time. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to experience your son. To have been able to love him and us being loved by him unconditionally. Protect my sister's grieving heart and give her the strength to continue in this journey called life. As for my family, may this bring us closer. May we love each other more than ever. May we continue supporting my sister in her times of need. You who make things happen in your own time. I thank you.

Rest in heavenly peace Raphael Mutaga. 

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