Home alone.
" You can't change your fate. It will always find you "
Wow! it has been a long time since I wrote.
Growth is something that you think is a myth until you get to a certain stage in your life and look back to who you used to be, what you used to do and how you used to think and all you can do is pat yourself on the back for knowing what you know now and moving forward.
My mother had the chance to go to Congo this summer and left me and my brothers home alone. To me it made no sense because I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ! I mean I do contribute in paying the bills but my mother does it all. I have never seen her go through the process of the payments. I just know our lights never went out due to no payment. Water never stopped running and I can always be in the comfort of my home when I need to and not be bothered.
Of course before she left she told me everything I needed to know and still I was nervous. I just never knew how to do all of that besides pay for my phone bill. I always believed that there was more to it so it scared me to know that I'd have to do it for the next two months. Yes! two months.
Can you imagine, I've always wanted to grow up. Get married one day and own my own home and STILL I didn't know how to do the basic but most important things? I found myself literally thinking "is me going out worth it ? we have food at home"; I also noticed that the " I am Broke" comments was truly me having money but for other things and not for the things my heart told me to treat myself with. It was a different experience for me. I tell you that much !
Fast forward to now. You know, I feel like I have one up on myself. Though life's tribulations are still there, I find myself making better decisions than I did 4 months ago. I now am more carefull in my decision making and a lot of things make sense now.
Dear God,
Thank you for giving me the strength to go through this summer with my sibblings.
The wisdom, knowledge and understanding to live and learn as much as I possibly could this past 2 months.
Thank you for holding me in my times of weakness.
Thank you for making me responsible.
Amen!
Ps: Now I understand the frustration my mother used to feel when we wouldn't take the chicken out of the freezer when she called 5 hours before and asked us to do so. I would of lost my mind too. Sorry mom.
Growth is something that you think is a myth until you get to a certain stage in your life and look back to who you used to be, what you used to do and how you used to think and all you can do is pat yourself on the back for knowing what you know now and moving forward.
My mother had the chance to go to Congo this summer and left me and my brothers home alone. To me it made no sense because I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ! I mean I do contribute in paying the bills but my mother does it all. I have never seen her go through the process of the payments. I just know our lights never went out due to no payment. Water never stopped running and I can always be in the comfort of my home when I need to and not be bothered.
Of course before she left she told me everything I needed to know and still I was nervous. I just never knew how to do all of that besides pay for my phone bill. I always believed that there was more to it so it scared me to know that I'd have to do it for the next two months. Yes! two months.
Can you imagine, I've always wanted to grow up. Get married one day and own my own home and STILL I didn't know how to do the basic but most important things? I found myself literally thinking "is me going out worth it ? we have food at home"; I also noticed that the " I am Broke" comments was truly me having money but for other things and not for the things my heart told me to treat myself with. It was a different experience for me. I tell you that much !
Fast forward to now. You know, I feel like I have one up on myself. Though life's tribulations are still there, I find myself making better decisions than I did 4 months ago. I now am more carefull in my decision making and a lot of things make sense now.
Dear God,
Thank you for giving me the strength to go through this summer with my sibblings.
The wisdom, knowledge and understanding to live and learn as much as I possibly could this past 2 months.
Thank you for holding me in my times of weakness.
Thank you for making me responsible.
Amen!
Ps: Now I understand the frustration my mother used to feel when we wouldn't take the chicken out of the freezer when she called 5 hours before and asked us to do so. I would of lost my mind too. Sorry mom.
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