Even when I lose, I win
" When you begin to tell your mental to recognize when you care, you start demanding different." - Sarah Jakes Roberts.
Allow me to remind you just how great God is and how precisely he shifts a situation to fit the destiny in our lives. Let me tell you just how connected I am with what God has been doing in my life because I forgot I had it in me but the accuracy is so precise that it scares me sometimes.
Let me go back to April 11th, I knew something wasn't right about my day because everything set me off. My mind was there but everything in me was bothered. I didn't feel like praying, I didn't feel like doing anything but I still went to work.
That day, I received bad news at work and for some very odd reasons, I wasn't moved. Instead, I was calm. Everything in me kept telling me that this is when my eyes need to start opening and my strength needs to begin to be molded because a storm is coming. I have been comfortable for too long and I needed an awakening. Low and behold, there it was.
I spoke to my mentor that afternoon and she asked me how I was and I explained to her the situation and I told her " I know a storm is coming. I just don't know from which direction but I know I'll get through it."
On April 12th 2018 at 6 in the morning. I opened my eyes and overheard my mother praying and crying in her room something within me automatically detached and the feeling of heaviness in my chest went away at that moment. She called me to go and see her but before I left my room, I prayed and begin to thank God. I felt so at peace and it was unfamiliar to me because usually I have exaggerated emotions but this time, it was different. When I saw her that morning, she didn't even have to say a word and I understood. She still worked up the courage to tell me that my Grandmother on my father's side has passed.
God works in such mysterious ways it blows my mind every time. The moment I heard the news, I gave her no reaction. I stood in her room listening to everything around me. I felt like I was in a movie when they zone everything out and the protagonist begins to listen to their inner self. I felt such strength over take me, I forgot where I was.
We love living in self pity because of the chaos around us. But I come to tell you that whatever you are going through, work up the courage to converse with God first. It doesn't have to be an elaborated prayer, Just get the words out of your mouth and speak what you feel.
I have never gotten the chance to meet any of my grandparents but the stories I've heard are the memories I will keep forever.
Dear God,
You tell us to stand still in your presence and fear nothing for you are always with us. Thank you for peace. Thank you for holding us together. Thank you for opening our eyes. Thank you for reminding us that it doesn't just happen to them, They could be us. Thank you for preparing us for this moment. We lost a mother/ grandmother and friend but you gained an angel. Receive her in your heavenly gates until we meet again. In Jesus name ... Amen.
Rest in heavenly peace Tabu Kabanga.
Allow me to remind you just how great God is and how precisely he shifts a situation to fit the destiny in our lives. Let me tell you just how connected I am with what God has been doing in my life because I forgot I had it in me but the accuracy is so precise that it scares me sometimes.
Let me go back to April 11th, I knew something wasn't right about my day because everything set me off. My mind was there but everything in me was bothered. I didn't feel like praying, I didn't feel like doing anything but I still went to work.
That day, I received bad news at work and for some very odd reasons, I wasn't moved. Instead, I was calm. Everything in me kept telling me that this is when my eyes need to start opening and my strength needs to begin to be molded because a storm is coming. I have been comfortable for too long and I needed an awakening. Low and behold, there it was.
I spoke to my mentor that afternoon and she asked me how I was and I explained to her the situation and I told her " I know a storm is coming. I just don't know from which direction but I know I'll get through it."
On April 12th 2018 at 6 in the morning. I opened my eyes and overheard my mother praying and crying in her room something within me automatically detached and the feeling of heaviness in my chest went away at that moment. She called me to go and see her but before I left my room, I prayed and begin to thank God. I felt so at peace and it was unfamiliar to me because usually I have exaggerated emotions but this time, it was different. When I saw her that morning, she didn't even have to say a word and I understood. She still worked up the courage to tell me that my Grandmother on my father's side has passed.
God works in such mysterious ways it blows my mind every time. The moment I heard the news, I gave her no reaction. I stood in her room listening to everything around me. I felt like I was in a movie when they zone everything out and the protagonist begins to listen to their inner self. I felt such strength over take me, I forgot where I was.
We love living in self pity because of the chaos around us. But I come to tell you that whatever you are going through, work up the courage to converse with God first. It doesn't have to be an elaborated prayer, Just get the words out of your mouth and speak what you feel.
I have never gotten the chance to meet any of my grandparents but the stories I've heard are the memories I will keep forever.
Dear God,
You tell us to stand still in your presence and fear nothing for you are always with us. Thank you for peace. Thank you for holding us together. Thank you for opening our eyes. Thank you for reminding us that it doesn't just happen to them, They could be us. Thank you for preparing us for this moment. We lost a mother/ grandmother and friend but you gained an angel. Receive her in your heavenly gates until we meet again. In Jesus name ... Amen.
Rest in heavenly peace Tabu Kabanga.
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