Don't beat yourself up too hard.
Anybody remembers Leah? The woman from the bible? The woman who forcefully got married before her younger sister because that was the tradition in her village? The woman that no matter how hard she tried, she was unable to make her husband love her the way how she was supposed to be loved? The woman who named 3 of her sons after her pain and only named one to glorify God? The woman who was so self centered, she refused to acknowledge that unlike her sister, God gave her the opportunity of baring children.
I'm guessing we all remember this story.
I will not get in depth on it but let me simply define the name "Leah."
Leah means : Broken soul, Deep-hurt. Discouraged and tired.
Not too long ago, I was so broken, I found myself in constant tears. The reason being, was because I came to a full acknowledgement of my life and nothing made sense. Everything was a mess. Nothing was going my way. I usually give myself pep talks " Glo!, you're not there yet , you're not ready yet.. when time comes , you will accomplish what needs to be accomplished." But this time, my soul refused to accept this. it ached. I even tried to talk it out so I could at least get an outside opinion to feel better, but the odds just weren't in my favor... I mean nothing worked.
So I begin to get extremely frustrated at myself and chose to focus on my problem and dwell on it as if an answer was going to magically make it's way in my head and that everything will be alright.
You know, God works in mysterious ways and if you've never experienced this, one day you will and your life will change forever. That specific day, my friend came to visit me. Of course I told her everything. I was stressed out !
In the midst of our conversation she told me : " you know, Everything you are struggling with now, you will not struggle with them forever right ? ." To her this was just a quote, but she didn't realize that I took the quote to heart and applied it in my life. As I was analyzing my situation, the teaching of Leah that I learned one Sunday came rushing in my head. I remembered how blind Leah was at the blessings God put upon her life. How unappreciative she was, and I found myself in her shoes. I noticed that I really invested so much time on my issues that I refused to look at the bigger picture.
God told us to cast all of our burdens to him. He tells us to knock and He will open, to ask and He will answer and to seek and we will find. how hard is that to understand? I had to come back to my senses and be thankful for the life that I have and I also had to thank Him for the struggles that I was in. I didn't need to accomplish everything all at once, all I needed to do was use what I already had and be patient and rejoice in the midst of waiting.
Forgetting to praise God through the good and bad times can really allow anything to take full control of your life. We should be careful not beat ourselves up too hard.
The teacher is always quiet during the test.
Prayer :
Dear God,
I am sorry I doubted you,
I'm sorry that i acted the way how Leah did, blind and unappreciative,
not acknowledging what I had but crying about what I didn't have and dwelling on it.
Father, you repeating that I should not worry
is a sign that you have it all under control and that I should simply follow each and everyone of your instructions.
As of this year, I'd like for you to take the lead.
I am letting go.
Amen.
I'm guessing we all remember this story.
I will not get in depth on it but let me simply define the name "Leah."
Leah means : Broken soul, Deep-hurt. Discouraged and tired.
Not too long ago, I was so broken, I found myself in constant tears. The reason being, was because I came to a full acknowledgement of my life and nothing made sense. Everything was a mess. Nothing was going my way. I usually give myself pep talks " Glo!, you're not there yet , you're not ready yet.. when time comes , you will accomplish what needs to be accomplished." But this time, my soul refused to accept this. it ached. I even tried to talk it out so I could at least get an outside opinion to feel better, but the odds just weren't in my favor... I mean nothing worked.
So I begin to get extremely frustrated at myself and chose to focus on my problem and dwell on it as if an answer was going to magically make it's way in my head and that everything will be alright.
You know, God works in mysterious ways and if you've never experienced this, one day you will and your life will change forever. That specific day, my friend came to visit me. Of course I told her everything. I was stressed out !
In the midst of our conversation she told me : " you know, Everything you are struggling with now, you will not struggle with them forever right ? ." To her this was just a quote, but she didn't realize that I took the quote to heart and applied it in my life. As I was analyzing my situation, the teaching of Leah that I learned one Sunday came rushing in my head. I remembered how blind Leah was at the blessings God put upon her life. How unappreciative she was, and I found myself in her shoes. I noticed that I really invested so much time on my issues that I refused to look at the bigger picture.
God told us to cast all of our burdens to him. He tells us to knock and He will open, to ask and He will answer and to seek and we will find. how hard is that to understand? I had to come back to my senses and be thankful for the life that I have and I also had to thank Him for the struggles that I was in. I didn't need to accomplish everything all at once, all I needed to do was use what I already had and be patient and rejoice in the midst of waiting.
Forgetting to praise God through the good and bad times can really allow anything to take full control of your life. We should be careful not beat ourselves up too hard.
The teacher is always quiet during the test.
Prayer :
Dear God,
I am sorry I doubted you,
I'm sorry that i acted the way how Leah did, blind and unappreciative,
not acknowledging what I had but crying about what I didn't have and dwelling on it.
Father, you repeating that I should not worry
is a sign that you have it all under control and that I should simply follow each and everyone of your instructions.
As of this year, I'd like for you to take the lead.
I am letting go.
Amen.
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